I’ve putzed around and adopted a new theme for myself that I can relatively tolerate for now. It’s what stinks about being something of a former designer: you’re never 100% satisfied with an artistic decision. Or maybe that’s just me.
Anyway, keeping this blog formal is a struggle, but I digress.
I haven’t updated in a very long time, and I apologize for that. I have no excuses, but I’ll go into them anyway: personal issues, and nanowrimo, which fortunately I won. Unfortunately, I’ve been in limbo at the last chapter (or second to last chapter, depending on how much my character decides to elude to) since Thanksgiving. I was surprised and delighted that my character, Charlie, gave me 50k words of her time so easily. Nanowrimo has typically been a struggle since ’09, but this year, it wasn’t as excruciating. For this, I am grateful.
For not wrapping everything up by the end of November, I am ungrateful.
But I only have myself to blame.
And now, it’s already Christmastime. My daughter just turned ten, and it was an emotional moment for me. How quickly it all goes by, and yet the memories are like they were only yesterday. I was listening to a soundtrack on my 40 minute drive home from work today, the soundtrack from the movie she watched day in and day out in her youth (Totoro, if you’re curious). And predictably, the tears were streaming down my face for the entire 40 minute drive. The driver of the pickup I was behind for 20 minutes must’ve thought I had a lot of issues.
But in reality, I did my best to keep my emotions at bay. Thank goodness I keep tissues and paper towels in the car. Children are a stark reminder of how life can pass you by and besides making you feel old, make time feel all too precious and wasted. My Angel Face grows too fast. It’s a happy feeling, and it cuts right to the heart.
I’m planning on a year in review before New Years Eve, and in the meantime, I want to know what’s on your Christmas wish list! I bought and wrapped my own material gift this year, a red B5 Leuchtturm 1917, which I am waiting oh-so-patiently for.
So what’s on your list?
I’ll leave you with a gif of me at Christmas dinner — er, one of my favorite Christmas movies.